I’m on the way of gaining my energy,
I’m on the way of searching that flame which was burning inside me
Yes that fire which is going away from my heart…
That fire which is not flaming inside me…
but there is a spark
I have to blow that spark which is lingering somewhere in my heart…
I know somewhere that exists in my heart…
I have to discover that spark to blow and turn it into the fire…
Yes that fire…Which is not like volcano while it’s like the sun Whose energy helps moon to shine…
Yes to shine…that’s what I want to do with my heart
Through that fire I want to shine my heart Through that fire I want to melt that ice
To discover my mind body and soul…
Yes my soul too …my soul is frozen from the ice
To feel my feelings to live my life,
I have to dissolve that ice for vigor So for that …
I’m on the way of gaining my energy,
I’m on the way of searching that flame which was burning inside me…

One day god took the wax of Love
And melt it with the heat of Emotions
Then put the thread of Faith
In between that to create the candle of Life
And light it with the flame of Hope
To Make The World Beautiful.

There are too many moments in our life when we get depressed. one of these moments is failure to getting recruited. How a person can handle this type of situation I learn from a person who is Divyaalok.
The time when I was thinking about starting my career, I started to searching job in news papers. My room partner & close friend Rekha and I were planning to struggle. As we planned we started to search job but not happy with recruiters regarding to salary. :(
One day I was in the waiting room of an office for interview, I heard a name -Mr Divyaalok. This reminds me one of Rekha's friend's name was the same. So I searched for the person named Divyaalok. When I see him, it cilcked my mind that he was the same pearson I seen, in Re's album i.e. Divyaalok with cute eye glasses. But still I was not sure. So I asked him after the Interview, "Do you know Rekha?". "Yes...you?...." he asked with smile which is very rare on his face. "I'm shailja", I replied. It was our first meet :). I told Rekha about the incident and we consider "World is small place".
After some time me and Re were planning to have business (not funny!! we were serious OK!!!) and Re suggested that Divyaalok can join us, I agreed (3 is better than 2). We planned to meet him. That was Public Library of Hazratganj where we planned our meeting. We talked about our agenda. After this all finished I asked Divyaalok about his job searching. He replied "Agar main kahi chane khau aur us chane ka cone mera resume nikle to mujhe koi ashcharya nahi hoga". It was the line I never forget in my life. This line was all to describe his mental condition and fighter spirit both. He impressed me with his spirit, hats off to such a courage.This incident taught me a big lesson.
Well we can't start our business because in few days we all got job. All we were busy in our new life. Now it more than 2 Yrs. I was online yesterday when Divyaalok come online. It is a long time when we were in touch. He asked about me about our old Locknow days, I was busy in other works so I give him unsatisfactory answers, I realised later that I hurt him unintentionally. but what to do now... It taught me another big lesson to care my friends instead of indulge all the time in work.
Thanks Divyaalok you made your name meaningful at least to me.

संस्कारों से जुड़ी मगर, खयालो से आजाद हूँ मैं,
चुप रहूँ तो चुप हु, बोलू तो बातो की खान हूँ मैं,
नीम सी कड़वी तो कभी, शहद सी मीठी हूँ मैं
गुजरा हुआ हुआ पल नही, जानेवाला लम्हा हूँ मैं,
कभी गुमशुदा, तो कभी वक्त की तलाश हूँ मैं,
कभी चमकता सितारा तो कभी बुझी हुयी आग हूँ मैं,
तलवार सी तेज़ तो कभी मोम सी कोमल हूँ मैं,
दोस्तों के लिए रोशनी, घने बदलो में बिजली की धार हूँ मैं,
भाइयो की बहन, बहनों का भाई हूँ मैं,
माँ की आँखों का तारा, पिता का अभिमान हूँ मैं,
थोडी सी नादाँ थोडी सी शैतान हूँ मैं,
कवि की कविता तो नही मगर, किसी का ख्वाब हूँ मैं,
परी तो नही दोस्तों, कुछ ऐसी हूँ मैं …
कम शब्दों में कहूँ तो पानी में तेल की बूँद हूँ मैं।